No Mud. No Lotus.

I’ve made more mistakes than I care to admit. Not just the obvious ones, but the subtle choices that damaged others in ways I didn’t recognize until years later. This is not a confession. It’s a confrontation with truth. If you’re reading this, chances are you’ve felt the weight of a decision that didn’t just cost you something—it cost someone else something they didn’t deserve to lose. Maybe it was their peace. Their trust. Their ability to feel safe around you. This book is for the person who’s ready to stop minimizing that pain and start owning it.

But more than that, this is a book about redemption. Not the kind that pretends it never happened—but the kind that looks pain in the face and says, “You’re not going to win.” Each chapter will invite you to reflect, to feel, and to take small but meaningful steps toward repair. You can’t rewrite the past. But you can stop the damage from continuing. You can become the person they hoped you were, and the one you were meant to be all along. That journey starts here.